22.1.10

if only..

there is alot of ifs in da whole.."if only i have done this..if only i had agree to it..if only i had rejected.."

been telling myself to..let it go..let them be..but end up..i start to trigger my own panic button..today..if only i had agreed to it..i would nt end up cancaling it..make 3 ppl unhappy..2 ppl pissed..1 ppl nan zhou ren..

dun feel like doing anything even when im going to bkk tmr..

da kite is flying higher..da line is pulling tighter..it feels like it will snap anytime..it wans to fly away..freedom is wat it yearns for..

i jus want to b happy...............life is simple...dun complicate it..